Thoughts

Why is it that the very minute you find out you are pregnant, it suddenly consumes your mind? It has been that way for me with each of my prengnancies, which generally doesn't bother me but I have so much more I need to be focusing on. I know it's largely due to the fact that this little thing called pregnancy totally and completely changes your life. I'm thrilled for this new little one to be a part of our family, but I'm having a hard time focusing on the here and now. I keep worring if everything is okay, although it isn't nearly as bad as it was with Gavin. You know, because I have been there, done that, but it doesn't help ease my mind. There is miscarriage and wondering if the baby will be healthy and normal? Will I have good health throughout the pregnancy, etc, etc, etc... And then there are the fun things like looking at bedding (if it's a girl), thinking of names, imagining what he/she will look like, etc... It's just all so time consuming in my own little head. My little guy turns ONE tomorrow, so thankfully my thoughts have been with him. Reflecting on what a joy and blessing it is to be his mom and remembering how amazing that day was, one year ago tomorrow. I'm just to lucky and thankful for him...to be his mom and be given the gift of motherhood in my life.