Bad Dreams

So, I've heard and read that having very vivid dreams while pregnant is normal, but I didn't really experience any when I was pregnant with Gavin. The past few days I have woken up and remembered that I dreamt the previous night, but nothing that I could remember. Last night, however, I had the most awful, horrible dream I could have ever imagined.

It was one of those dreams that didn't really make sense. I was at my OB's office (except it wasn't really his office) and we went in for an ultrasound and one of the babies was gone. Vanished. The feeling I felt was horrible and something I would never want to feel in real life. I asked him if I would miscarry and if it would be like my last one or if I would need a D&C since I was so far along. He told me to go home and things would happen within a few days and that he was so sorry. He said the other baby was really small, but looked good otherwise. I told him that their movement had changed a bit...that I was feeling more movement on my left side than my right like I usually do (which is true). I remember thinking that I would have to send back gifts that people have given us with a note saying we wouldn't need two anymore and wondering how I could possibly explain it to Matt (he wasn't there in my dream).

When I woke up, I laid there and had to think for a minute if what I had just dreamed was real or not. I immediately touched my belly and felt a little kick. Everything was okay. Both babies are okay. It took me half my morning to shake off that horrible feeling, but in a wierd sort of way, I appreciate this pregnancy a little bit more now. Life is precious and even though I feel unprepared to take on this challenge, I know that Heavenly Father will get me through. I just pray that everything continues to go smoothly with the pregnancy, my health and the babies. That is all I can hope for.